Hacksaw Ridge

This weekend I had some time to watch Hacksaw Ridge. Truthfully I didn’t know there’s a war movie directed by Mel Gibson. Mel Gibson rarely disappoints. The movie was released November last year and I didn’t¬†even know that until I heard the movie screening being announced on the radio. The movie is only screened this month in my country. I was so looking forward to Dunkirk that I lost sight of this beautiful movie. Give me any war based movie and paired with ‘based on a true story’, I’m sold! Just like that. At least, you get me to watch it regardless how bad the story line is because that’s for me to decide after I watch it. I love war based movie especially if it’s based on a remarkable true story like Hacksaw Ridge. I never knew I get to see another war movie as good as Saving Private Ryan.

Hacksaw Ridge didn’t disappoint. It was portrayed amazingly; the cinematography (no wonder it was nominated for Best Picture), the scripts (It was not cheesy or anything unrealistic), the story line (A tad religious though) and amazing casts. But at some point I still see Vince Vaughn as a funny guy, can’t help it. He was a real surprise too. Sam Worthington on the other hand, he’s with his usual style. Andrew Garfield however is the most surprising one. People said he was a miscast but I beg to differ. He was pretty good great as Desmond Doss. I don’t know Desmond Doss but I would imagined him to be exactly as how Andrew Garfield carried himself in Hacksaw Ridge. You know a brave young man with full conscience and knows what he’s doing. A man struggling with the world with his own values. I don’t know what is it but Doss genuinely hit me emotionally throughout the film. I see bravery, honesty and sincerity. It was just in the right amount to tap into my emotion.

Mel Gibson knows what we want in a war movie. The strong graphic depictions of the war events blew me away. It was brutal but remains classic. Gore, violence but never unpleasant. Mind you, the movie was about 2 hours long but it was never a dull moment for me. I love how Doss’s character slowly unfolds from the beginning towards the end, Andrew Garfield made it believable to see how Doss became a true hero. What a courage! God bless a kind heart like that.

On another note, I have yet to watch Split. Heard good reviews about the film and James Mcavoy himself. I wanna watch it but too bad, the film is only shown in certain cinemas. Maybe I should get some time to watch it or else, just wait for HD version online. I don’t have any obligation to watch it in cinema. It’s only for Marvel movies. It’s a satisfaction for me to watch it in cinema ūüôā

Happy New Year

Happy New Year
It’s already 10th anyway.

I think 2016 was not that bad compared to 2015.
Too many things happened in 2015, think it was my worst year ever.

2016 was not good either but at least I’m doing much better toward the end of it.
My life is slowly building up.
I’m getting healthier. No, I think my health is in good condition.
I no longer feel as fatigue as I was especially at night time.
I get a whole lot of energy to do lots of things at day and night which is good ūüôā

My broken-hearted heart (such emphasis! haha) is healing and I’m doing much better.
It took me such a long time to finally be at this state. It gets better in time.
I don’t think that much about such matter any more and yes, still not ready to open my heart to anyone.
Back to building walls, it’s what I do best.¬†I believe in Allah and I pray¬†that Allah will open my heart only to someone true and real. Insha Allah, everything will happen in His perfect timing. I pray Allah will help me guard my heart until then.

I have pick up new interest too. Now I kinda like watching horror movies.
I used to decline watching it whenever anyone offers me because most of the time I’d be covering my eyes and bugging people to tell me what did I miss.
Table has turned. I now enjoy watching this kind of movie with my brothers, not alone. Haven’t reach that level yet. Baby steps. Haha.
Surprisingly watching the ‘ghosts’ was not that scary.
Not sure if I’m old enough I’m no longer scared or I already increased my scare tolerance that somehow it felt normal. Haha

Last but not least, I didn’t make save¬†that much money in 2016, more like I spent most of them on unnecessary things.
Despite all the rough edges in my life, I’m content with my life. It’s far from perfect. I still have few bumps here and there but I’m doing fine.

Well it’s a new year and as cliche as it sounds, it’s a new me too.
I hope I will save more money this year and not spending more than what I earned. I also hope I will spend less time on social media. This should¬†not be hard¬†because I deactivated my fb many years ago and no longer active in Twitter. The¬†only social media account I’m still active is Instagram. In this case, I¬†hope I will post less too. Oh well, I¬†rarely post that frequent anyway.

I have already made plans for the whole year and I have 3 main goals (Let it be known between me and my Maker) for this year.
If anything goes in the wrong direction or something comes up in the middle of it all,
I believe Allah is The Best Planner and He knows what is good and bad for me. After all,¬†He is the Disposer of all affairs. So I’m good, knowing I have Allah.

2017 has many movies for me to watch too. Not a fan of Batman vs Superman cos I think it has weak plots and ugh, Ben Affleck is one¬†hell of a slow and¬†sloppy¬†Batman. Not a fan of DC comics too.¬†But I’m so looking forward to¬†seeing Wonder Woman even though I’d prefer if she is not that model-like that much. Wonder Woman should be more athletic. Then we have Logan, Kingsman 2, Despicable Me 3, Spiderman Homecoming, Thor Ragnarok and the movie I’ve been waiting to watch… *drumrolls*…….Dunkirk. It’s Nolan’s movie.

I am a sucker for Nolan’s movie and this is war based movie, my kind of movie. I watched the trailer. It has Cillian Murphy in¬†it and the music¬†is by none other than Hans Zimmer.¬†Of course, a must watch for me. Give me anything Nolan + Cillian Murphy + Hans Zimmer. I’m SOLD. haha

As for my 2017 movie starter, I’m gonna watch Arrival tomorrow.

Initially I don’t have plan to watch any movie this month despite knowing Passengers, La La Land, The Great Wall¬†are showing now. I’m going to stream it later. Then I read some recommendation online saying Arrival is a must watch for those who like Sci-Fi and movie with extra meaning for you to think, a thought provoking movie. I’m sold even though this movie¬†is not a mindfuck¬†type of movie (my kind of movie), you know like Primer, Coherence etc.¬†I still hope it’s good as people have been saying the movie is more like Interstellar. My kind of movie!


I’ve been sleeping late in the past¬†days binge-watching Netflix series. ¬†I’ve watched Stranger Things before and I love it. There are a lot of 90’s reference to that and seeing Winona on screen again is a swell.¬†Can’t wait for 2nd season. This time around, ¬†I’ve finished The Crown and Black Mirror. I love Netflix series. Next year, they’ll come out with Lemony Snicket’s Series of Unfortunate Events. I hope it’ll be fun. I’ve read the book and watched the film but I’d love to see how Netflix do it considering most of their series are fun for me.

All these binge-watching makes me feel like I was back in uni life again. I used to watch lots¬†of TV¬†Series and movies back in uni days. I used to download all of them and people would come¬†to me as their source haha. Nowadays I don’t download it anymore, I¬†stream all of them. Thank God for high speed internet. I don’t have the luxury of having high speed internet back in Uni. I was dependent on my external broadband. Le sigh.

Enough with my¬†TV series and stuff.¬†I’m gonna rant about what I’ve read these days. I think this new generation¬†is such a spoilt brat (Not all of them obviously). Kids and parents these days are too flimsy. I’ve read that some parents were furious when their kids were punished for coming late to school. The punishment was only to sit on the road at the entrance.¬† I’d call this¬†“a punishment in¬†the least cruel way”.

This issue may not be new only in this generation. I think the development of internet seemingly served to accentuate this issue as well. You know, when every tiny issue is being made viral. It was only good to a certain extent.

For parents, I understand they want the best for their children but coming up with ridiculous excuses defeats the purpose. Parents complained about how their children were embarrassed of such punishment. Like seriously? Where did you go to school last time? For all I know, our schools have tons of other more ‘cruel’ punishment. But none of us make a fuss about it. There were dissatisfaction and all that but it ended there. We all know all those punishment made us who we are today.

I’m scared of seeing where this is going. I mean, in the next few years, we will be raising a spoiled and delicate generation that we always have to put their satisfaction and entitlement first. They’d have more power and control over adults. You know, we can’t ask them to do this and that anymore. We can’t punish them anymore. They’d be so delicate like a snowflake. It’s a beautiful sentiment to tell kids that everything is a rainbow but it’s not real. Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose and you have to work hard in order to succeed. Bruises and a little¬†bumps in life¬†serve as¬†good lessons anyway. If you do something wrong, you have to bear the consequence. Live it and own up to the mistakes you’ve made. Too much comfort isn’t good anyway.




I can’t sleep so I decided to rant in here. Bear with me. haha

I’ve been busy and lots of things kept me occupied. This weekend I managed to visit my best friend’s and her newborn in another state. I didn’t get to see the baby just yet, he was in special care newborn unit and only parents are allowed to go in. So I guess I’ll visit them again in few weeks. And today was my cousin’s engagement day. The whole day was busy. Then at night time, I managed to catch an episode of this Netflix series, The Crown.

And now is way beyond my bedtime (I sleep really early especially if tomorrow is working day) but I just can’t sleep. My mind is preoccupied with lots of things too; work, life stuff, random stuff etc. Anyhow, few days ago was election day for Americans and we all know Donald Trump is elected to be POTUS.

I didn’t really religiously follow the chronology of this election. I watched one debate and mostly I read news from the media. Safe to say, I fell victim to the idea of how the media wants us to see Trump, an idiot. It was deliberately misconstrued. I stop at that. I didn’t really dig deep on that.

Although I am actually open to anything (I don’t limit my reading to anything, any views whatsoever), I don’t really understand political views in America. So I see him just as how media portrays him. You know how media is a champion of manipulating things? It’s the same concept everywhere, even in my own country. So when he won the election, I was baffled on the idea of him winning the presidency. My initial reaction was that he played the racism, sexism card very well. I believed he tackled on their (Sexist, racist, misogynist etc) emotion well enough to win their votes. And I even believed those who voted him were those rural area voters. Pardon me for such generalization.

I am not American and I was on neither side. Not Trump nor Clinton. But I was thinking like people would vote for Clinton considering she has political experiences and whatnot. After Trump won, I read a LOT. It was an eye-opening moment for me that I began to understand how and why people voted for Trump. I see him in a different perspective. From someone with the least possibility to run a country to someone who has merit and capability of such. I see that as much as people hate issue on racism, sexism and all that, people hated political correctness even more. These people grew tired of all that coming from politicians, all those hypocrisy. And Trump himself is not an idiot but media manipulated his words. I watched Trump’s winning speech, it was not that bad. He seems genuine and he really cares about America and he wants to make America great again. Probably having a businessman running a country isn’t that bad. At least he is a realist and knows how to work hard, how to achieve things, a goal-oriented type rather than having someone who is just all talks and being subtle and juicy about the crimes they themselves created.

But it’s too early to tell. He could be a blessing in disguise but he could even be an evil. Only time can tell. If he’s all about making the country great again, it’s fine but if he’s all about banning Muslims, immigrants and all that, then we’re all doomed.

All I can say is that give him time and see what he does.

Anyway, after he won, lots of memes about him and there’s this particular one that was funny. They replaced Dormammu to Trump and was like “Donald Trump, I’ve come to bargain”. I’d imagined that scene from Doctor Strange every time it comes out and laugh. Haha

Well I should now force myself to sleep. I’m gonna be busy at office tomorrow anyway. Good night

Deepwater Horizon

It feels as if I haven’t write for so long although it was not that long. Well, I was really sick in the past weeks. But I’m fine now which is good.

I even went to watch Inferno & Deepwater Horizon over the weekend.¬†I don’t really like Inferno but it was free ticket, so it’s okay. The only thing I like is the soundtrack by Hans Zimmer especially the end credit. I wish one day MPO members would play all score by Hans Zimmer. I’d love to watch that. I’ve been wanting to watch Deepwater Horizon ever since it was out but my condition was quite bad, I spent my days mostly in bed. I was so happy I got to watch it even if it’s a little late. Who doesn’t know about Deepwater Horizon case back in 2010? Well if you don’t, the oil spill in the gulf of Mexico may ring some bells.

As usual,¬†a¬†movie inspired by true story¬†can only covers facts up to a certain point. But at least, the cause of the rig explosion was portrayed¬†in layman’s term making it a bit easier to understand it. We may never know precisely what caused the accident because those who died that night have contributed to the final decision as well. We’ll never know¬†their side of the story. It was not a single individual blame. All we know is that several¬†missteps and oversights¬†by BP, Transocean, Halliburton definitely led to such catastrophic event.

I enjoy watching the movie and understanding the technical term such as the cement bond log (CBL) among other things. CBL test was supposed to be carried out by Schlumberger’s crews but BP sent them back. I even took some time understanding¬†(in technical terms) the cause of the explosion, from A to Z.

I’m not in Oil and Gas industry nor am I a drilling engineer or something. But I do have an experience working as an intern in the field. Yeah, I was one of the lucky interns who had my internship during their turnaround (which is held once in every 3 years). I was given the pass for confined-space entry. Every single day, I’d follow other engineers to go inside the confined-space and seeing how they do their works, examining the¬†column etc. I’ve been to every inch of the plant, I went inside every confined space in the plant.

Yeah, it was one of the good memories in my life. In fact, I’ve conquered my fear of height when I was there. I still remember the very first day I had to climb the monkey ladder. It was really high. Of course I was equipped with safety harness and safety lanyards but it was¬†to be hooked inside, not outside when climbing the monkey ladder.¬†I was really slow. The engineers kept reminding me “Don’t look DOWN”. When I reached the top and waiting for my turn to go inside the manhole, I got the best view of the ocean from atop. We even took picture, I’m not sure whose camera was that. The first column I went doesn’t has any built-in ladder near the manhole so they attached a rope ladder. Imagine first time¬†descending that kind of ladder¬†in a¬†confined-space (It was dark). Haha. It was scary for me for the first few rounds. Eventually¬†I’m no longer as afraid as I was the very first time. It was fun for me. The¬†other engineers¬†teased me of that too. Of how I was climbing really slow and don’t dare to look down etc. >_< ¬†I’m thankful to them who have been really patient with me and they’re really awesome!

One thing I’ve learned, safety is a real issue in the field.

When it was my time,¬†a similar issue of misstep caused one of the pipes to blow out.¬† Luckily at that time, they haven’t purge the oil yet. It was only the hot gas. I didn’t know the whole details. But that event caused a delay to the whole turnaround and some injuries to workers.

Seeing the movie definitely brought back memories. I kind of miss wearing the coverall but nah, I’m not cut out to be in O&G field. I’m happy where I am now and I am glad I had the chance to experience it once in my life¬†ūüôā

On a side note, I went to supermarket to buy Marigold HL Strawberry Milk but there was none. Then I read news. They had recall all of the milk due to a customer’s report of the unusual high viscosity of the chocolate milk. They recalled all of the flavours¬†for preventive measure. Good for them.


Nocebo Effect

While placebo effect is associated with those who expect positive improvement when taking fake medicine or bogus treatment (Because they deem it so), Nocebo effect is an opposite of a placebo effect.

It’s when people expect negative side effect of something even when it’s innocuous.

I have this.

Maybe it’s 50% true and the other 50% is just drama.

I consider myself as caffeine intolerant but only in coffee, latte and anything alike.
Yes, caffeine is almost everywhere. In coffee, tea, energy drinks, desserts and many more.
I’m well aware of such. But my brain established this idea that my body rejects caffeine in coffee and alike.

I get substantially agitated after drinking coffee and alike.
Usually followed by series of headaches and body aches. Sometimes, it almost felt like I’m dying. No kidding. I feel extremely fatigue and groggy.
I know, drama right?

This is nocebo effect (Not sure if I can use it over something non-medical but whatever)!
How do I know this? Because I’m fine (most of the time) when I drink tea, energy drinks and even when I take those caffeine-infused desserts.
If I truly have this caffeine intolerant thing, I’d have the same reaction to any caffeine.
You know like it’s an allergy. But nope. I only experience series of headaches and body aches after drinking coffee and alike.
Maybe I’m coffee intolerant as per se.

The only truth is that I’m a little sensitive to coffee and alike because I don’t consume it that much. I can increase the tolerance bar if I increase my daily intake, I suppose.
Not that I want to, but it’s sometimes so annoying.
I get immediate adverse reaction after a cup of latte when my friend is getting her 5th cup of coffee. So unfair.

I shouldn’t drink it, right?
Well, sometimes I go stick my neck out like that.

Note: I just drank a cup of latte when I’m writing this. I think I’m catching fever.
Drama aside, I think it’s true although I’m chanting “This is just nocebo effect, you got nothing on me”

Respecting Trust

I was brought up in a family where we respect someone’s privacy and confidentiality. Don’t be nosy too. If it’s none of your business, stay away from it. Not your concern.

In my house, if the letter is not addressed to you, you don’t open it unless you’re given permission to do so. Else, just do NOT open it.


We are all family and blood-related guys! But my parents taught us that’s respect.
My mom never opens any of my letter or parcel unless I told her it was nothing so
she can open it (If I need her favor to check on something when I’m at the office).

I carry the same notion to everywhere I go even when living on my own.

When I was living in UK, there was a time when I had to live in a friend’s house for a short stay before I find another house to live towards the end of my stay there before I come back for good.

There was a letter from the bank addressed to me.
At that time, I lived few blocks away in a new place but I haven’t change my bank address yet.
I was told by this young lady (My friend’s housemate).
She whatsapp-ed me and I replied telling her it was probably nothing but I will get it TOMORROW.

I thought that was it. I thought that was clear enough.

However, to my surprise, minutes after that, she told me she already opened it
and it was a bank statement containing the money that my father had transferred via IBT.

I was furious at that time. Furious may be an understatement.
I was even disappointed and confused.




She’s still young. Maybe 20-21? I don’t know.
I forgive her because of that. I am old enough to let it pass.
But it shows her upbringing more than anything.

If it’s not addressed to you, do NOT open it especially when it’s coming from the bank.
This is not sales catalogue or some rubbish  advertisement.
This is very CONFIDENTIAL.

And read the message clearly. If the recipient didn’t tell you to open it, she means it.
Don’t go on saying “Oh I thought I can open it” Duhhhh

My level of strictness (Or pettiness) is up to a point I do NOT even open letters
that came to my house by accident or those that were addressed to previous tenants.

But what to do. This kind of people exist too.
This type of people is dangerous. Stay away from them.
You have to educate them before they do the same to others.